Respect

“Come on,” Dave sneered at the old man. “That’s all you’ve got? Pathetic.”
The bag of soil didn’t budge.
Dave laughed under his breath, shaking his head like he was embarrassed for someone else. “You’re kidding me. This is where you tap out? A bag of dirt?”
The old man grabbed it again, yanked hard. It lifted just enough to prove a point – then dropped.
“Wow,” Dave scoffed. “You’re actually that weak now.”
Behind him, Dave’s wife exhaled sharply. “Hey – knock it off.”
He ignored her completely.
“Look at you,” he went on, voice sharper, nastier. “Hands shaking like you’ve got no control. Can’t even hold a grip. What happened? You forget how your own hands work?”
The old man flexed his fingers in front of him like he was inspecting someone else’s failure.
They trembled anyway.
“Yeah,” Dave muttered. “Thought so.”
“Enough,” his wife said, firmer now.
“No,” he shot back. “Someone’s gotta say it.”
He kicked the bag lightly. “You think you’re still the same guy? You think you can just power through everything like before?”
He bent again, grabbed the bag, strained – his arms shaking harder now – but it barely moved.
“Look at that,” he said, a cold laugh slipping out. “Can’t lift. Can’t hold. What’s next, forgetting why you even came out here? Standing around like an idiot trying to remember your own name?”
The words kept coming, faster, crueler.
“Face all lined up with wrinkles, back bent, hands useless, brain slipping – what exactly are you hanging onto? Pride? That’s gone too.”
The bag slipped again and hit the ground.
Hard.
The old man stayed there, breathing heavier, staring down like he’d just proven something.
Then, quieter, conceding
“Just… worn out. Past your prime. Nothing left.”
Dave’s wife stepped closer. “Who do you think you’re talking to?”
Dave didn’t answer.
He straightened slowly, one hand pressing into his lower back. The other rose to his temple, rubbing like he was trying to keep something from falling apart.
“First thing to go is memory,” he muttered. “Little stuff. Names. Why you walked into a room.”
“Dave…” she said, aggravated.
“Then strength,” he continued, like he was explaining it to someone who refused to get it. “Then balance. Then you’re just… in the way.”
She moved right in front of him. “Stop it.”
That landed.
He didn’t argue.
His eyes dropped to his hands.
Still shaking.
To the bag at his feet.
Unmoved.
Then slowly… to the his reflection in the truck window.
Lined.
Older.
Him but not him anymore.
His jaw tightened.
“I thought if I said it first…” he said quietly, the edge gone now. “…it wouldn’t feel like it was happening to me.”
Silence stretched.
He kept staring at his reflection.
At the man he’d just torn to pieces.
“That’s you,” he said under his breath.
The words didn’t cut anymore.
They just sat there.
Heavy.
His wife stepped closer, her voice firm but steady.
“You wouldn’t talk to anyone else like that,” she said. “So quit doing it to yourself.”
He swallowed hard, eyes still locked on his reflection.
“Look at me,” she said.
He didn’t want to, but he did.
“That man you’re talking about?” she said. “He raised a family. He built a life from nothing. He worked through injuries, through long days, through years most people would’ve quit.”
Dave’s eyes flickered.
“He’s still here,” she continued. “He still shows up. He still tries. You think that counts for nothing?”
He swallowed.
“You’ve got grandkids who light up when they see you,” she said. “Who don’t care how fast you move or how much you can lift. They just want you.”
Her voice softened – but didn’t lose its strength.
“You still fix things. You still teach. You still make people feel safe just by being around. That didn’t disappear because a bag of soil didn’t move.”
Dave looked back at his reflection.
It didn’t look as small now.
Still older.
Still worn.
But not… empty.
“You’re so busy tearing yourself down,” she said, “you can’t even see what’s still standing.”
For a long moment, he said nothing.
Then, barely a whisper
“…Yeah.”
Dave stood up a bit straighter.

Were all Just Passin’ Through

There’s a strange, quiet reckoning that comes with getting older – one that doesn’t arrive all at once, but creeps in gradually. It is hidden in the comfort of familiar faces that once felt immortal.
If you, like me, were born anywhere around 1970, then the 80s weren’t just a decade – they were a proving ground. A time when music felt louder, movies felt bigger, and the people on our screens and in our stereos felt untouchable. They weren’t just entertainers, they were larger than life. Indestructible. Permanent.
And now, as time goes by, one by one they’re going, going, gone.
When a musician or actor from our youth passes away, the grief hits differently than it used to. It’s not just about them anymore. Not really. Of course, we feel it – we remember the scenes, the lines, the moments burned into our memory. Heck, a full half of my vocabulary is made up of 80s movie quotes and song lyrics. Underneath that however is something deeper, something harder to quantify. It’s the realization that time didn’t stop where we hoped it did. Back then, those people represented a kind of invincibility. They were fixed in place, a moment in time. Frozen at their peak. Forever in their leather or neon jackets, their iconic roles, their very prime. And if they were permanent, then in some way, so are we.
Unfortunately time doesn’t work like that.
Now, when we hear that another one has passed, it’s not just a loss – it’s a marker. A reminder. A quiet voice that says, that era is ending… and so is the illusion that we’re somehow immune to the progression of time.
So when we lose a childhood staple of our youth, we’re not just mourning that person; We’re mourning the version of ourselves that existed when they mattered the most to us. That kid blasting cassette tapes in their room. The teenager watching the same movie for the tenth time. The feeling that life was wide open and free, stretching endlessly ahead of us. The feeling that we still had forever to go.
What’s different about our generation (and generations to follow I’m sure) though, is this:
We have never in history had the kind of access to the past that’s available to us now.
At any moment, we can pull up a song, a movie, an interview, even a photo. We can see our heroes and idols exactly as they were – unchanged, unaged, still in their prime. It creates this strange dual reality where the past is both gone and completely alive at the same time.
They’re still there. But they’re not.
And neither are we.
That’s the part that lingers in the back of my mind.
Because while we can revisit those moments endlessly, we can’t fully step back into them. We can’t be the person we were when they first meant something to us. Time only moves one way, no matter how many times we hit replay.
And maybe that’s not entirely a bad thing.
Maybe the point isn’t to hold onto that illusion of immortality. Maybe it’s to recognize just how powerful those moments were – and still are. The fact that a song from 40 years ago can still hit you in the chest means something. It means it mattered. It still matters.
And so do we.
Because if the people who felt invincible aren’t physically invincible, of course, they can be “immortal”. Time doesn’t just take – it leaves things behind. Memories. Soundtracks. Stories. Pieces of who we were that we still carry. We’re not just watching the past disappear.
We carry it forward.
And maybe that’s how we make peace with it – Not by pretending we’re still young, but by realizing that those years didn’t vanish. They became part of us. Woven into who we are now.
  So when the next headline comes, as it inevitably will, and another name from our youth fades into history, take a moment. Feel it. Remember.
And don’t just mourn the passing of a person or a period in time, recognize that you were there for it. Celebrate that those moments were in some way, large or small, a part of becoming who you are.
Time marches on, for all of us.
Now get to the choppa

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